i know this isn't really the time for me to be here blogging, but whatever. i'm just in the worst mood you can ever think of now, seriously. thanks for letting me know that there's actually someone who cares about me, someone who senses my existence, unlike the others. thanks for letting me know so much, to see through people. really, thank you. maybe from the start, it was all a mistake. nothing but a horrible mistake, horrible choice that i made. i've always thought to myself, would life be different if i didn't make this choice? you all make me regret it, and today, i've confirmed it. but at least, there's someone who knows my existence. really, thank you. maybe she's the only one who really understand how i feel. yes, maybe some of you other people know it. but seriously, what have you done, other than being alliances? i feel horrible deep inside, but everyday i've to force a smile on my face. i'm tired of doing such things. really. no one would ever know me as well as __ do. seriously. i'm really sick and tired of everything. but whatever, have you ever heard of 己所不欲，勿施于人? you'll get your desserts one day. but i'm just very disappointed that things eventually turned out this way. if you would like to live in your world, go ahead. stop bringing my friends in. please. i'm getting intolerant of such things. so what? you're really not superior to anyone. or perhaps, given your character, you might be inferior. nevertheless, at least i found out today, that there are people who care for me, and notice my existence, and these are the friends whom i will cherish from now on. i will stop trying to appease you and your nonsense. thank you to those friends who have brightened up my day. :)

i know this isn't really the time for me to be here blogging, but whatever. i'm just in the worst mood you can ever think of now, seriously. thanks for letting me know that there's actually someone who cares about me, someone who senses my existence, unlike the others. thanks for letting me know so much, to see through people. really, thank you. maybe from the start, it was all a mistake. nothing but a horrible mistake, horrible choice that i made. i've always thought to myself, would life be different if i didn't make this choice? you all make me regret it, and today, i've confirmed it. but at least, there's someone who knows my existence. really, thank you. maybe she's the only one who really understand how i feel. yes, maybe some of you other people know it. but seriously, what have you done, other than being alliances? i feel horrible deep inside, but everyday i've to force a smile on my face. i'm tired of doing such things. really. no one would ever know me as well as __ do. seriously. i'm really sick and tired of everything. but whatever, have you ever heard of 己所不欲己所不欲，勿施于人? you'll get your desserts one day. but i'm just very disappointed that things eventually turned out this way. if you would like to live in your world, go ahead. stop bringing my friends in. please. i'm getting intolerant of such things. so what? you're really not superior to anyone. or perhaps, given your character, you might be inferior. nevertheless, at least i found out today, that there are people who care for me, and notice my existence, and these are the friends whom i will cherish from now on. i will stop trying to appease you and your nonsense. thank you to those friends who have brightened up my day. :)

hi everyone! i hate my life now, seriously! it's like a stupid routine that i go through each and every day. :/ 6-8 tests a week. SS tests weekly. emath tests weekly. mock exams. WOW! zzz. i really wonder whether doing so much would bring me to my like.. A1s.. or maybe they will just have no effects. i come home to study everyday. i study to go to school for tests. so, i kind of live to do tests. :((((((( whatever it is, i hope that all these efforts that i put in would be worthwhile when i see my results next year. really.

anyway, PRELIMS ARE COMING. something like 4/5 more weeks? that's really really really short. SHORT. it's like... half a week per subject. that's very little time. but whatever it is, i'm going to do my best for prelims, and nothing less. i remember promising myself that i would give my best for mids, but AYG and everything was like.. a barrier. BUT. I'VE NEVER EVER REGRETTED JOINING AYG. it's really fun. :)))) it's only 3-4 more months to O levels, but i'm sure these few months are going to be tiring, torturous and everything. but, i'm just going to dedicate my life to these things. after Os, i can PLAY all i want! :)

yep! thats all for now! i miss dance!!!(random) haha. wonder when i'll be back?